It’s So Good To Be Home

Limiting beliefs, we all have them, but we don’t have to be an ascended, enlightened master to get past them. We simply have to train ourselves to be aware of our inner dialogue and believe me it can be quite shocking to ‘hear’ your limiting beliefs. Not only the number of them, but the frequency with which they repeat themselves!

Continuing with my quest for freedom this month, my focus is about ridding myself of the limiting beliefs of the kind of home I deserve and can afford to live in. Maybe those beliefs have something to do with the fact that I have moved 45 times since my birth! I think that may be a miscalculation and surely it can’t be more than 35 times, but still, that’s a lot of moving in one lifetime! I have rented homes and bought homes and wherever I’ve lived my family and friends always tell me that I make it a very special place. One of my sacred gifts is creativity and that has always been expressed in my home.

Last year I was given notice to vacate in order for my landlord’s​ son to move into my lovely carriage house. It was unexpected and I found myself in a very, very tight rental market. Faced with very limited options I ended up in a basement suite that had no room for a bed and no storage whatsoever… not even a clothes closet. It was a fear based decision and went totally against my favourite new quote…’Beyond fear, lies freedom.’ Needless to say I felt rather depressed in the space as it wasn’t a place where I could enjoy having my family and friends over. And that kind of socializing is – in my mind – what makes a home. My daughter commented that she knew I wasn’t happy because I hadn’t bothered to hang any artwork on the walls.

Having a design background, the aesthetics of my home are very important and I realized I had to get out of there. Surely, I deserved better! A comfortable, light-filled home, with a view and amenities such as insuite laundry and closets!

So, I stopped allowing fear and limiting thoughts of, ‘so this it for me’ and ‘I didn’t expect to end up in a place like this’ and replaced them with envisioning what I wanted.

Fast forward eight months when an out of the blue call from an old neighbour that had an apartment for rent changed everything. I have just moved into a space that is pretty much exactly what I envisioned, but better. Appliances galore (even an icemaker in the fridge!), gas range, insuite laundry, a fireplace, breathtaking mountain views including a slice of my favourite part of the river (if I stand on the left side of my deck and lean out) and not just one but two closets!

So far I’m liking the changes in my life this year and all of them because I chose one word, Freedom, as my 2017 focus.

This is my last move for a very long time. I’m home.